It’s Friday at long last… you can almost hear the sighs of relief as this day dawns each week and at this time of the year, this week usually signals the start of the school summer holidays… the time when air fares and holiday prices escalate to such a degree you almost have to re-mortgage just to spend hours queuing and waiting at airports, then there’s the dodging of traffic jams… and of course the endless ways that the little ones (or not so little) need to be entertained!
Still the “season” has only just begun so all is (hopefully) positive: sighs of relief at the forthcoming lie ins, no school runs … anticipated rest & relaxation, so looking to the end of six weeks seems far away, although its’ approach will be inevitable… do you already have a plan in action for the whole holiday period? Where you don’t end up grumpy, frazzled and glad for the return of school? Where activities are already noted on the calendar? Or will you wing it… be impromptu… see what each day brings as it unfolds?
And I’m pretty sure that for parents, mostly everything will be geared around the kids. But what about you? Your daily life interrupted… the house not run on the usual routine… peace and quiet (if you ever get any)… gone!
How are you going to look after yourself at this time? Because although a lot of people consider it “selfish” to put themselves first… if you don’t look after yourself properly… and that includes some time out… how can you give the best of yourself to others? Is it better to run yourself down so as to be “on call 24/7” or to take a half hour once a day just for you?
How hard can it be
to relax and let go
to say that’s enough
there’s nothing to prove
or put on show?
There is a time to push
to strive for more
but also a time to stop
to say No
I’m feeling too raw
To soften doesn’t equate to being weak
it can remove inner barriers
open your mind
help you find answers that you seek
Being hard doesn’t equate
to always being strong
There’s no specific line
No definitive right or wrong
So much in this life
we are told that we need
but what is your soul crying out for?
On what does it feed?
Money
Results
Work done at high speed
Or is it just
that your soul
needs you to see
the self laid open
Flying free?
But in this life
many don’t seem to care
so how can you trust
open up
share?
Where do you sit
What could you shift
What do you want to change
and within what range
between the one side of hard
and the other of soft
where you don’t have to fear
being scoffed
What step can you take
to give yourself a break
to let go of anger
of judgement
of self hate?
Which could lead
to a chance
to begin again
where self-acceptance
is no longer in vain
For new decisions to make
A life chosen
A life you can create.
So folks, just grabbing 5 minutes to pop in here… I’m conscious I haven’t updated properly since the last post connected to the Sierra Leone Marathon, but that’s because life has just kept getting busier and busier. Do you every get to the point where you just feel totally overloaded? Well although we talk about managing time and stress and pressures of life, it happens to Counsellors too! And I miss my writing so will endeavour to pop in more, albeit shorter posts.
For those that follow regularly, you will have noticed that I have stepped into the world of poems, which feels to flow very nicely at the moment. They will be posted on Wednesdays, hopefully fortnightly… but I will see how that goes.
And how come the lack of time? Well I finished the college course I was on… and promptly started another! At the same time as the day job and the counselling job (both voluntary and private)… and then there’s the running! Sometimes you never know what’s around the corner and this has most definitely proved to be true since visiting Sierra Leone in 2013.
For those that follow me on Twitter, you will no doubt know how some of this has seeped into my life… I’ve heard the phrase “taken over” muttered by friends but feel that may be just a little harsh 🙂 … but what we do in life will always ripple out. For every action, there is a re-action. And travelling to Sierra Leone to run in the marathon that the charity Street Child organises each year… well that opened new doors for me… very positive and happy doors… more on that to follow!
In the meantime, this weekend I am running a race to once again raise awareness for Street Child. I will be running it with a few of the amazing friends I met out there, including the mad Geordie previously mentioned here… who still reminds me I went and left her (yes Helen, I’m talking about you again!)… this will probably happen again tomorrow… well I reckon if I’m never going to hear the last about it, I might as well make it worthwhile 😀
And the race, it’s a little adventure through a wonderful trail which takes a bit of time… 100 kilometres long… from a town to some stones that have been standing a while in a field… time to go lace some running shoes up…