To the End

06/08/2014

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To the End

What do you see
when you look into my face
what thoughts and images flash through?

What do you feel
as you hover above
looking down
acting like a clown?

What about when you cuddle up close
looking happy
looking morose?

What about when you pat my chin
when you want attention
when you touch my skin?

We greet each other
every day
a good morning
a hug
a grateful sigh
each day that arrives
brings a happy thought
a moment
a pause…
we still have
just that little bit more time.

And every day
you do the same thing
you look puzzled, bemused
as the alarm starts to ring
you tilt your head
snuggle up close
no words need to be said
just another few minutes
a little more time
before I have to get out of bed.

I should be used to this by now
I tell myself each day
yet still I watch and wonder
as you move… startled
as the alarm starts to play.

How do you hear that noise
how does it sound
how much I wish you could tell me
how I wish I could understand.

People say that you don’t care
how can I know your feelings are true
but to connect so deeply to another
with such total utter unconditionality
to deny that instinctive elemental love
I just don’t get
that mentality.

I’ve always known that time will approach
I know I’ve done everything I should
I also know that when all is said and done
My self I will still reproach.

Because
not enough time did I give
not all my words were soft
in ignorance I wanted to stay
to keep my world’s reality at bay.

I hope and pray this didn’t add
to any suffering and pain you had
I just could not believe it true
this day could come so soon.

And sure enough
that day did come
time to leave
our physical bond undone.

Together to that very end
you knew you weren’t alone
protected
safe
surrounded by love
wrapped in my embrace.

My heart
my spirit
my very soul
into the mystery of beyond you go.

Words © July 2014 Michelle Payne
Picture found circulating freely online


Affirmation of the Week

23/07/2012

“I WELCOME SOMETHING NEW INTO MY LIFE”

Change… it’s scary… so we resist… yet unless we want our general life or self to be the same in another year, 5 years or even 10 years time… change has to happen. Now, I’m a fan of integrating things fully which then necessitates moving slowly… as I was told a few years ago, you can’t rush or miss out certain steps, as they will only re-appear at a later date… so this affirmation isn’t just about changing a thought pattern, it’s actually also a physical change!!! Yes, very often everyone at some point in their lives will need to change a thought pattern, will need to continuously repeat it mentally in order for it to take hold… but some things actually need us to physically DO!

I believe that thoughts have energy… when we think something, we are sending that energy out into the world, and then generally reaping its’ reward… and for  affirmations that’s good… however we can wish, hope, affirm and pray all the most wonderful thoughts in the world… but if we want new, we have to help ourselves physically too… we can create change, we can bring in new and wonderful opportunities into our lives, but some of them require physical action… there’s no point in wishing for a new door to open in front of us if we don’t actually step through it… we can ask the Angels, Gods, Goddesses, Guides, Helpers (or whatever higher deity you happen to believe in) for their help but in this world, on this plane, we also have to physically help ourselves!

This doesn’t have to be a big change… in fact, big changes are probably the hardest because to maintain… so why not start small?  What small change can you make right now?  It can be as small as you want… do you want to learn something new? Try new recipes? New make up? A new hairstyle? Dress differently? Do you want to be around people more? Or less? Get a new job? Move to a new town? Change your relationship?

What little step can you take to help you start to move through that door? It could even be as simple of buying a book secondhand or even looking a recipe up online… or stepping into the gym for the first time!  What new thing would you like to try and what is the baby step to start you on your way?  Feel free to comment and share with us!

This also brings to mind an email joke I received some time ago (and found on http://www.jakesjokes.com):

“Flood ShmudIt was flooding in California. As the flood waters were rising, a man was on the stoop of his house and another man in a row boat came by. The man in the row boat told the man on the stoop to get in and he’d save him. The man on the stoop said, no, he had faith in God and would wait for God to save him.

The flood waters kept rising and the man had to go to the second floor of his house. A man in a motor boat came by and told the man in the house to get in because he had come to rescue him. The man in the house said no thank you. He had perfect faith in God and would wait for God to save him. The flood waters kept rising. Pretty soon they were up to the man’s roof and he got out on the roof.

A helicopter then came by, lowered a rope and the pilot shouted down in the man in the house to climb up the rope because the helicopter had come to rescue him. The man in the house wouldn’t get in. He told the pilot that he had faith in God and would wait for God to rescue him. The flood waters kept rising and the man in the house drowned.

When he got to heaven, he asked God where he went wrong. He told God that he had perfect faith in God, but God had let him drown.”What more do you want from me?” asked God. “I sent you two boats and a helicopter.”

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead ♥

© 2012 Michelle Payne


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