A Life to Create

23/07/2014

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A Life to Create

How hard can it be
to relax and let go
to say that’s enough
there’s nothing to prove
or put on show?

There is a time to push
to strive for more
but also a time to stop
to say No
I’m feeling too raw

To soften doesn’t equate to being weak
it can remove inner barriers
open your mind
help you find answers that you seek

Being hard doesn’t equate
to always being strong
There’s no specific line
No definitive right or wrong

So much in this life
we are told that we need
but what is your soul crying out for?
On what does it feed?

Money
Results
Work done at high speed
Or is it just
that your soul
needs you to see
the self laid open
Flying free?

But in this life
many don’t seem to care
so how can you trust
open up
share?

Where do you sit
What could you shift
What do you want to change
and within what range
between the one side of hard
and the other of soft
where you don’t have to fear
being scoffed

What step can you take
to give yourself a break
to let go of anger
of judgement
of self hate?

Which could lead
to a chance
to begin again
where self-acceptance
is no longer in vain

For new decisions to make
A life chosen
A life you can create.

Words © June 2014 Michelle Payne
Picture found circulating freely online

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Meeting the Child within

09/07/2014

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Meeting the Child within

The light of life
that spark of humanity
it resides within
this form we call human.

We create, we destroy
we live, we breathe
we feel, we touch
we teach
until that final day we reach…

Yet bonded to us
through millennia
through souls and spirit
through hearts
there dwells within a child
with whom we have a shared past.

Have you met this child?
Do they have a name?
Are they gentle, wild
or are they tame?

Are they happy?
Are they sad?
Have they been told that they’re good
or that they’re bad?

Do you accept them?
Or reject them?

Do you welcome them with loving arms
and strive to keep them from any harm?

What story would they voice
if you would give them that choice?

Would they describe you as a stranger
having been kept hidden
to stay safe from danger?
Or would they be out in the open
whole, not broken?

Why not say hello?
Give them a wave…
show them that yes,
step out, be seen,
they can be that brave.

Because if you won’t accept them…
love them…
hug them…
Who will?

Step up to the mirror
take a deep breath
see who is revealed
within the eyes’ depths

Who is there?
Meet Your Inner Child laid bare!

Words © June 2014 Michelle Payne
Picture found circulating freely online


Affirmation of the Week

28/01/2013

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“MY LIFE HAS MEANING”

I was actually planning on doing a lighthearted affirmation this week… but several events led to me recalling a conversation I had some time ago, during which someone actually said to me they worried that I was wasting my life (seriously, can you believe that someone who doesn’t know the *real* you would have the audacity and arrogance to say such a thing!) and that led me to musing over how people in general place meaning on others’ lives through their own perceptions.

I believe that this in part is down to self-esteem, as are most things in life… if we have low self-esteem how can we believe we are worth anything, that our lives mean anything… that we contribute anything… and so the vicious circle perpetuates itself. People then project this onto others because, at the end of the day… let’s face it… who wants to think that they are *Billy No-Mates* with a severe attitude problem to boot?

My life has meaning to me… and to those closest to me… my self-esteem is high… yet whenever we are going through a spiritual lesson, at the end of that cycle comes a test!… and I believe that that is what happened to me on that day… I was given such a test. Do I really think that this person is right? That I am wasting my life? No I don’t. I think I contribute quite a lot to others’ lives, hopefully in a very beneficial and positive way. I hope that I help others.. and I know that I am much more content with my inner self, my life… and also how that will ripple out into the future. Just because my life and my views are different to others makes no difference to whether it has more or less meaning.

I wonder how many people who read this blog have gone through a similar thing, have wondered what meaning they have by being here… how much they give and are accepted for who they are, for the real person that is not just the different facets that are shown to others, but that very essence which resides deep within, our spirit or soul if you will (depending on your personal spiritual beliefs)…

I hope that no-one feels that their lives don’t have meaning, because every single one of us has something special to give if we can but see it… and that’s our love, our Spirit… which we can give without attachment or expectation of return… we are all unique, we all contribute… and we all have meaning.

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead ♥

Image origin: Unfortunately unknown, would love to find more of this person’s art, so if you recognise it, please do let me know!

© 2013 Michelle Payne


Affirmation of the Week

14/01/2013

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“I LISTEN TO MY GUT INSTINCT”

We all come across situations, people and choices that can make us feel uneasy… hell, sometimes we can even want to run in the opposite direction because we get a feeling so strongly!

Gut instinct… it’s a strong thing… a force, a power… it can be intuition, feelings, emotion… our guts are our *power house*… the home of the 3rd chakra (solar plexus) for those who are interested in the holistic side of life… and for those who are not, if you think about it, when we get stressed or things don’t seem right, then that can activate our adrenals, which turns on the flight or fight response, which in turn fires up the acid in our stomachs… anyway, holistically, this area can represent many things including our power and control over events in our lives… or perhaps should that be our belief of how we control things?

Looking back, I’ve always had this kind of gut reaction… sometimes weakly, sometimes strongly… once it was so loud I actually thought I heard an alarm bell go off above my head… seriously! It would highlight when to be wary of something, whether that be years ago going home after school and I would know, on the way home, that I would be in trouble for something when I actually got there… to more recent time when things just haven’t felt “right”.

Yet how can we trust the feeling? I mean really, truly, trust the little warning sign that flares up instead… because let’s be honest… it can also do that when we’re scared… when we are fearful… even when we’re unsure of something and are wanting an iron clad guarantee of how something is going to turn out! That’ll be the feeling of control again 🙂

As does everyone I guess, I have doubted my gut instinct… I have second guessed myself… yet when I really listen to that gut instinct it never fails to support me. The times when it has been loudest and I’ve not listened… have brought about some of the biggest learning lessons I would endure… and some of the hardest to get out of… would have been much easier if I hadn’t been so pig-headed as to not listen in the first place *grin*!

So questions for you to ask yourself this week are:

How often do you listen to your gut instinct?
When don’t you listen to your gut instinct?
How do you know when your gut instinct is calling you?
How loud is it?
How often has it been right?
How often have you ignored it?
Why have you ignored it?
What’s happened when you’ve ignored it?
What’s happened when you listened to it?

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead ♥

Image origin: Unknown

© 2013 Michelle Payne


Affirmation of the Week

07/01/2013

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Yoga Retreat, Barbados November 2011
© 2011 Michelle Payne

“I AM HAPPY AND HEALTHY”

Health has been at the forefront of my mind these past few weeks as I’ve unfortunately been laid low over the entire Christmas period with a bad flu virus and sinusitis.  It also reminded me of how I felt a few years ago when I had to take a long time off work to recuperate.

I am, and was, very lucky. Some years ago I had extensive, cutting-edge hip surgery and although my surgeon was one of the few that deals with hip arthroscopy, unfortunately I had to have the whole “open you up” kinda thing and be pinned back together, which then meant a further op to get them out.  This, of course, meant some months off work and on crutches and it’s amazing how much your self-awareness can grow at times like this… well I know mine did.

When you’re ill, you have expectations, not just of how it would any illness (or surgery) may go, but how you will manage, how physically capable you will be, how you think people will react to whatever situation you’re in at that time, and you’ll definitely find out what your “support” system is like!  And of course there’s the emotional expectations… are you a cup full type of person, or a half-empty one?  What “safe” routines do you fall into, where do you feel most comfortable… how much do your perceptions of self change? After all, times of healing can also very often show us where we most need to change our attitudes, if we are open to it.

In my opinion, positivity and focus are key to regaining optimum health… as are the words *Yes I can* (hmmmm, that may be meat for a later affirmation). I definitely felt my positivity slip both at times during recovery from surgery (I won’t bore you with the details since it’s so long ago) and yes, during this latest flu episode. Christmas especially is a time of being with loved ones, and this year I spent Boxing Day alone for the first time ever, ill in bed… though I did have the offer of dinner being brought round to me… meals on wheels express service *grin*.

Yet this affirmation isn’t just to be used by those who’ve undergone surgery or even anyone who needs *healing* of any kind. I think it’s the kind of affirmation that reinforces our soul each and every day. It helps to change our outlook… our focus… it helps to bring positivity into our lives… which then ripples out to help our physical health yes… and also our emotional and our spiritual health, because really, aren’t these all inter-linked?

It can also remind us to look at everything good we have in our lives, to be grateful for those things, or people… and even opportunities… we then find happiness and contentment within… and one of the physical benefits of this I think… is that we then radiate this outwards with our behaviour and attitudes towards others.

I am happy and healthy… (the remainder of flu notwithstanding)… I am… I have a great life, great friends and great support… no my life is not *perfect*… yes I’m still (and always will be) on a path of learning and self-awareness… yes I’m sure there will always be obstacles somewhere… but overall, I have excellent health for where I am in life, and a hellavu lot of happiness… which I try to remember daily and be grateful for.

Affirmation questions to consider for this week are:

How healthy do you feel?
How happy do you feel?
What obstacles to health and/or happiness do you think you have?
What can you do about such obstacles (even if it’s just a shift in attitude)?
What one change can you make right now to improve your health?
What one change can you make right now to improve your happiness?

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead ♥

© 2013 Michelle Payne


Affirmation of the Week

31/12/2012

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“I AM OPEN TO NEW POSSIBILITIES”

And so we hit the last day of 2012 which heralds another week beginning, as does another month and another year… that’s a lot of new beginnings!

Celebrate endings – for they precede new beginnings.
~ Jonathan Lockwood Huie ~

I don’t know how anyone reading this blog is feeling (please feel free to post a comment and share), but I’ve definitely felt a shift of energy as we’ve moved towards this new year. Lots of change has been happening which has been accompanied by the usual increase in intensely vivid dreams (always an indicator of change for me) and a feeling of needing to declutter and simplify… again. To be honest, I don’t think I’ve got that much left to throw out *grin*.

So yet again, a time to move forward, and of course, once we have decided what we can, or indeed, must… leave behind… that will then create a gap for something new to come in. However, rather than attempt to draw something specific in, that fits a *perfect* criteria… I thought this affirmation was great for helping to keep our hearts and minds open to all possibilities… without judgement, without expectation… after all, it’s all very well to hope for something, but if we determine beforehand every single option, then that’s actually kinda rigid thinking don’t you think? Though do feel free to disagree with my train of thought 🙂

Whatever you want in life, start today.
Not tomorrow – today.
Let it be a small beginning – a tiny beginning.
Your happiness depends on starting today – every day.
~ Jonathan Lockwood Huie ~

Of course we may not know what *new* things we want to accomplish, we may not even have a goal in sight at present, but by being open to possibilities, we open our awareness to the opportunities that may present themselves, so we don’t have to know these things. It is, in fact, enough just to be open, to take one baby step at a time… to have trust that we will know when a possibility presents itself, to believe that something will actually turn up… to have faith that yes, we will then know what to do.  One step at a time. And each step along the way will constitute a journey that one day we will look back on and see how far we have come.  Of course, it may be a bit easier if hindsight were to accompany us from the start, but alas it insists it will only appear further down our path!

Anyway, a new year lies ahead, one that is filled with new days which can bring anything and everything into our lives… I know I don’t want to limit what those possibilities are, and I know I want my heart to be open to them.  Do you?

I am the New Year
~ Author unknown ~

Life, I am the new year.
I am an unspoiled page in your book of time.
I am your next chance at the art of living.
I am your opportunity to practice
what you have learned about life
during the last twelve months.

All that you sought
and didn’t find is hidden in me,
waiting for you to search it out
with more determination.

All the good that you tried for
and didn’t achieve
is mine to grant
when you have fewer conflicting desires.

All that you dreamed but didn’t dare to do,
all that you hoped but did not will,
all the faith that you claimed but did not have –
these slumber lightly,
waiting to be awakened
by the touch of a strong purpose.

I am your opportunity
to renew your allegiance to Him who said,
‘behold, I make all things new.’
I am the new year.

Affirmation questions to consider for this week are:

What do you want to leave behind?
How can you stay open to all possibilities?
How open is your heart?
How much do you trust in opportunities becoming available?
What positive step forward can you take right now?
What would you like to dream into existence today?

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead ♥

Image origin: Unknown

© 2012 Michelle Payne


Affirmation of the Week

24/12/2012

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“I EMBRACE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT”

And so we’re in our Christmas week… only a couple of days to go! Have you got all your cards written and sent, all your presents bought and wrapped up? And let’s not forget all the food that’ll be eaten as well… always a highlight… must admit it’s the one time of year I actually get time to do some baking, even if it’s only the Pavlova that gets requested for Christmas Day and my favourite oatmeal & raisin cookies (yeah I know, not expected given my chocolate consumption…)!

Christmas means many things to many people… and given the diversity of beliefs and opinions (to which we are all entitled) that may read this post, I am not going to wax lyrical about any specific one. Suffice it to say, that from my (very small) awareness and perspective, all religions and spiritual organisations appear to have the same fundamental aspects at their very core, those of:

Love
Acceptance
Non-Judgement
Helping others
Being honest
Being faithful
Being loyal
Being kind
Learning
Sharing
Caring
Compassion
Treating others as you wish to be treated

And we all know, in our hearts, that just because someone may not agree with us, doesn’t necessarily make them wrong, it just means they have life experiences, societal/cultural learning and awareness differences to our own. Perhaps then, the most important thing we can do for ourselves and others that will benefit us all is to open our hearts and share “Christmas” spirit, not just today when you’re reading this, nor just on Christmas Day, but try to embody and incorporate those aspects into our very being, each day of our lives.

Please have a wonderful Christmas week… and a special Christmas Day with your loved ones. Send loving energy and thoughts to those who can’t be with you, healing to those who need it… and hope for those who have none. I wish that you all have a Christmas that is filled with love, joy, laughter and hugs 🙂

Affirmation questions for this week are:

What does Christmas mean to you?
How is your Christmas spirit/energy coping?
What Christmas message can you give to others
What Christmas present can you give to yourself?
How can you keep your Christmas energy going?

And since it’s that time of year, I thought I’d share that Band Aid song, which was released way back in 1986!

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead ♥

Image origin: Unknown

© 2012 Michelle Payne


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